Waiting

Well the time has come to wait, been waiting alone a week so far with another one to come before we find anything out. We try to occupy our minds but we always say I wonder, I hope... bloated is all I have physically felt for a little more than a week. Jeesh! Between the retrieval of the eggs to the transfer of the embryos I've never been so bloated in my life time. Never!! I am finally starting to feel okay again. I was sleepy and bloated and bored - being on bed rest for two days - and now being restricted as to what I can do. I finally went to the grocery store today just for five items but boy it felt good to just walk around. Ha! Hubby has ben taking good car of me, laundry, cooking dinners, making sure I am not doing anything besides sitting, he even calls/texts to check on me while at work. I do love him so much, this entire experience while it did try our relationship it really has kept us strong.

I wish I had more to report but I do not.

The process itself is not scary but it is confusing, there are so many medications each with their own strict guidelines. each guideline has its own set of rules which apply on some days and on other are different. The doctors appointments, the invasive procedures, the unsureness, the lack of positive guarantees.... it is not scary but it sure is something that you need to be willing to accept or you will go into complete overload and probably just break down. So many questions. Prying into your every behavior, and then you begin to question yourself. For sure if you are TTC and you are getting into the beginning of the whole fertility treatments be ready, be open and don't over research yourself into a brain tizzy! Ask your doctor, and research your doctor for sure.

We went right into IVF with ICSI skipped all the other possible treatments as they would not have helped us given our circumstances and our doctors recommendations. I can tell you all out there in internet land questioning this, a year ago I was frightened knowing nothing about any of this, I feel seasoned. I feel blessed and hopeful.